Matt Broze said: >>> Sorry I was so hard on you Doug. It had been a very hard week <snip> stream of consciousness. Memory fades for how we hear or read something and in what context it was in. Oftentimes even though we know it was suspect when we heard it the memory will forget it was hearsay and be left with something like: Mariner Max "it had too small a cockpit" or "a hard cockpit to get into". I could go on and on with other examples but you get the point.>>> No need to apologize, we were just giving Jerry his "fix". Guess that makes us co-dependent! I do now see what you mean about selective memory in terms of what people read vs what they remember. It has happened to me and I suspect all of us. Imagining what it would be like to walk a mile in your Moccasins, I'd think I'd be a bit hypersensitive too. >>> <snip> You have already read what I have written for Sea Kayaker on the Storm Island Rescue <snip>. While you may not like all the conclusions I came to... >>> Your conclusions are fine, mine just would have been different, or had a different emphasis. >>> As long as we are speculating about each others motives in public let's try this thought on for size. Could it be that you would like it to appear that I wrote or edited my version of the Storm Island Rescue vindictively as the result of your recent posting of hearsay about my kayaks you haven't paddled. Hard to believe that was your plan all along, but I suppose it is possible. Could this have something to do with your wanting to get your version out to the public first (even at the risk of destroying a friendship and your profitable relationship with Sea Kayaker magazine) and maybe even prevent my version from being published at all. My version includes the way the other two paddlers saw the incident as well as how you saw things. I did notice your version (as published on Paddlewise) had changed slightly (from what you originally wrote me) in ways that seemed to reflect and answer/preempt some of the things I had written and sent to you for comment. <snip> >>> Again Matt, you are reading waaaay too much into this PW rescue report thing, as you did with some of the other stuff I said in my post about the Mariner (I), rudders, etc. That is why I was tending to start to worry about some of your conclusions that I thought I may not have seen yet (but it does show you are a thinking man, going beyond the one dimensionality of many in the paddle sports fraternity). I also have some new info about one of the other paddlers that perhaps should alters my previous pretensions. I was probably ranting just like you with my post. I too am having a bad week, my back is completely screwed now (just in time for the "warm, windy n' wild, but not-too-wet season" and "daytime big tide season". I am very depressed -- even tying my shoes on a bad day can send me into spasms, and I blame my self for attempting to tow Andrew long after I should have turned back on the crossing. My back has never been the same since. My back is my "Mojo" (an Austin Powers thing) in sea kayaking terms, and I am quickly becoming impotent. I lash out easily and say silly things in such a state. And I am not you Matt. My inductive reasoning skills, perceptions, and life's ambitions, I would hazard a guess, are far more metaphysically based than yours. Please understand this, and what kayaking means to me. I lack the mental acumen to manipulate anything other than to get people excited about the paddling lifestyle and share my experiences and thoughts with those who want to listen. If I blurt things out at times, remember, you were the one who encouraged me not to T.H.I.N.K. You are a good man Matt Broze. Thank you for taking the time from your busy schedule and livelihood to contribute to Paddlewise. Let's keep the rest of our stuff back-channel, as I'm sure people are getting "sick and tired" (my favorite projectionary expression!), though it has show folks the kind of stress that goes on behind the scenes and/or caused them to wear out their delete key. BC'in Ya Doug Lloyd *************************************************************************** PaddleWise Paddling Mailing List - All postings copyright the author and not to be reproduced outside PaddleWise without author's permission Submissions: paddlewise_at_lists.intelenet.net Subscriptions: paddlewise-request_at_lists.intelenet.net Website: http://www.paddlewise.net/ ***************************************************************************
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